Hamaswee

"Happy nth month. I know it's been hard us this past days. Arguments, less time for bonding, and separate priorities. But honestly, I've been trying to fill up what I have missed for both of us. I just wished what happened didn't change anything between us. Instead it would make us stronger just like our past experiences before. We used it as our motivation to make our relationship better instead of us getting apart. I don't ever want to lose you baby. I love you."

-- This shocked me a bit. Even you knew something was not right. I can't believe this was your last message.

I know I'm going to be okay.

Sure, it's easy to say that I'll eventually get over something that was so important. But it takes a lot more courage to actually do it. Now I know exactly how it feels; how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you, wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end.

But it's okay to relapse. It's okay to cry sometimes. It's okay to feel sad, angry and hurt. Because soon enough, the pain will go away. Don't bury it, don't run away from it. Feel the pain but don't wallow in it.

It will go away.